it always starts with that harmless drag you take

Here I am smoking a cigarette as I am typing this message, how depressing. I have been smoking again for 2 weeks. This past time that I "quit" lasted for 1 year. The prior time lasted for 5 years. That time was when I thought I had really won the battle with smoking. I never thought that after 5 years of not smoking that I would ever go back. Surprise, surprise...it always starts with that harmless drag you take and even has you start to cough, choke, become lightheaded and tell yourself how gross that drag is-you inevitibly spiral down and realize that you are once again "back for another round".